why am i in japan? どうして日本にいる？yes because i want to escape from the world of biology for a year, but also i really want to learn japanese. i took japanese 9, 10, and 11 and the more i learned, the more i wanted to really dig into the japanese grammar and vocabs and learn as in depth as i could. but unfortunately for me i wasn't able to take japanese 12 cause of schedule conflict with a music composition class (yes, music still rules). i decided to be ambitious/stupid and took the japanese 12 challenge exam, where i studied all the japanese 12 materials by myself and took the exam (got 78% for the challenge, but friggin 99% for the provincial YEH BABY). okay, so then, UBC! well all science kids have schedules that are just jam-packed with biology, chemistry, physics, english and all those lovely courses, so...yet again, couldn't take any japanese classes. then, biotech! yah, couldn't really take any japanese courses in BCIT eh.
so i've been suppressing this desire to learn japanese for four friggin years now. and finally, i'm in japan right now, the most ideal place to be to learn the language, so i'm really looking forward to attend a japanese language class right now.
so why am i complaining? well...after taking a placement test, i was placed into level 2 (out of 8 levels), and being andrew who has too much pride in himself, i'm not satisfied at all with this result. so i decided to get into level 3, but i'll have to take this test in order to escape from set-free cow class. so as i'm struggling to prepare for this test, i'm thinking to myself how unfair this situation is for me. i haven't had the privilege like most other students do, to take japanese courses in university. i had to study by myself with almost no guidance from others because i'm stupid, i don't know my own mental limitations (i.e. 自不量力), and i still believe in work input = work output. learning a new language is not just pure memorization and understanding the concepts, it requires a long-term guidance from teachers to really solidify all that crap in your head.
or maybe i'm just an overachiever...who can't seem to overachieve others...
anyways, if you're raising one of your eyebrow and thinking what the hell is this guy talking about, i understand, cause even i don't know myself if this is worth complaining about. but if you understand, thank you.
3 comments:
I totally understand.
I was put in the 'pre-experience' cohort in my MA class and man was I PISSED. They didn't filter the cohorts according to real experience but to age. Age has nothing to do with how much you know/ or have achieved. They were being ageist. I reasoned and argued with the director and even made up petition to overthrow the system and in the end, it worked. I was placed into the post-experience cohorts since I've already worked at several galleries/museums. Anyways, the lesson to be learned here is that just fight to the DEATH for what you really want. There isn't anything you CAN'T do or change.
I believe in you baby!
you always amaze me, either with your stupidity or your genius.
in the area of studying japanese on your own, very much like how you studied grade 5 music history alone, you amaze me with your genius.
don't give up! it's alright to complain but don't give up! you've been looking forward to this for far too long to waste it with complaining :)
uh why don't you just major in Japanese and get it over with.
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