10.14.2009

sparrows

has the lifeless destroyed your soul,
your passion, and your cool?
has practicality vapouried your dreams,
your strength to escape from that whirlpool?

you had your chance, to prove your worth
but your persistence,
(or your cowardness, if you will)
decided to stick to conformity.
"what now?" you ask,
looks like they're all prancing about from afar,
where everyone else is,
laughing at your so-called success.

finally, now, you want to strip off the post-its.
you liquify your stance,
hoping that they'll all sink back to you.
is it working? is it working?
even if it is, they'll all just fly away the moment you open your eyes,
or maybe you're the one who's bailing out,
always coming off as a fluff.





9.28.2009

blehlbehlbehlbhelbhebleh

so when i don't have enough space on plurk, i guess this is my sanctuary for longer complaints and rants.

why am i in japan? どうして日本にいる?yes because i want to escape from the world of biology for a year, but also i really want to learn japanese. i took japanese 9, 10, and 11 and the more i learned, the more i wanted to really dig into the japanese grammar and vocabs and learn as in depth as i could. but unfortunately for me i wasn't able to take japanese 12 cause of schedule conflict with a music composition class (yes, music still rules). i decided to be ambitious/stupid and took the japanese 12 challenge exam, where i studied all the japanese 12 materials by myself and took the exam (got 78% for the challenge, but friggin 99% for the provincial YEH BABY). okay, so then, UBC! well all science kids have schedules that are just jam-packed with biology, chemistry, physics, english and all those lovely courses, so...yet again, couldn't take any japanese classes. then, biotech! yah, couldn't really take any japanese courses in BCIT eh.

so i've been suppressing this desire to learn japanese for four friggin years now. and finally, i'm in japan right now, the most ideal place to be to learn the language, so i'm really looking forward to attend a japanese language class right now.

so why am i complaining? well...after taking a placement test, i was placed into level 2 (out of 8 levels), and being andrew who has too much pride in himself, i'm not satisfied at all with this result. so i decided to get into level 3, but i'll have to take this test in order to escape from set-free cow class. so as i'm struggling to prepare for this test, i'm thinking to myself how unfair this situation is for me. i haven't had the privilege like most other students do, to take japanese courses in university. i had to study by myself with almost no guidance from others because i'm stupid, i don't know my own mental limitations (i.e. 自不量力), and i still believe in work input = work output. learning a new language is not just pure memorization and understanding the concepts, it requires a long-term guidance from teachers to really solidify all that crap in your head.

or maybe i'm just an overachiever...who can't seem to overachieve others...

anyways, if you're raising one of your eyebrow and thinking what the hell is this guy talking about, i understand, cause even i don't know myself if this is worth complaining about. but if you understand, thank you.

7.08.2009

姐姐的facebook note


未知的路

以為自己擁有的很多
但是把手緊握
才發現什麼都沒抓牢
青春就像沙子一粒粒的從指縫滑落
夢想像是遠方的海螫蜃楼
我還繼續朝向未知的方向前進
等到累了才發現 原來什麼都沒真正屬於過我


姐, 我們要一起加油.

Acquaintances

So we all know how Vancouver buses during midnight come every few decades or so, which means a lot of waiting at the bus stop. Well, ever since I started working at Blenz, I've made a couple of random and very interesting acquaintances with people on the streets. (Just a few weeks ago I was talking to these two dudes, one from Scotland (drunk), and other one from India. According to them, Asian girls are the new trend right now, not European girls). Anyhow, so on my way back home tonight, I met this guy from Norway, and another girl from Montreal. At first I thought they were a couple traveling together, but later on I learned from them that they've only arrived in Vancouver less than 5 days ago, and judging from their not-so-subtle touching and flirting, I'm guessing they had just recently hooked up in some bar. On a Tuesday night. So Montreal, I was all adrenalized when this word came up.

Andrew: Oh! I lived in Montreal for 4 months last summer!
Girl: Ah! Where deed yu live?
Andrew: Des Pins and Sayin-Lo-houant (my attempted French pronunciation of the street names)
Girl: ..where?
Andrew: ..um, Saint-Laurent (reverts back to English pronunciation)
Girl: Oh! Saint-Laurent! (in the proper French accent)
Andrew: Yah! And you know what I miss the most about Montreal?
Girl: What do yu me-zz?
Andrew: Schwartz's!
Girl: Shhh...warz?
Guy sitting beside me: Schwartz's. Le restaurant de sandwiches à la viande fumée.
Girl: Ah Schwartz's! Very délicieux!

And I was almost about to whore out my vile Français to them. How humiliating that would've been. Even worse than some soon-to-retired prostitute trying to seduce customers with her wrinkly saggy skin. My 5 years of French immersion, gone to waste, just like that.

On a side note, the guy sitting beside me (he grew up in Montreal) who kindly translated my horrendous French to the girl tells me that the reason Quebec smoke meat is so uniquely different from the rest of Canada is because they use horse meat to make their wonderfully delicious sandwiches. Apparently, it's because horse meat is slimmer, which is what makes it so mouthwatering.

I do enjoy talking to strangers on the streets. Not only can I interchange my identity from acquaintances to acquaintances, (so far I've been Geoff, Jack, and many other names), I learn cool things from them. Most of the time I remember what our conversations are about, cause they have such fascinating and far-fetched stories to tell, whereas I can never think of any that can out-interest theirs, even if I had wanted to lie about one. So most of the time, I can merely nod my head like an idiot and reply "Oh! You're kidding!" or "No way! How did that happen?" (Any suggestions for newer and better responses will be greatly appreciated). What dumbfounds me even more is that having lived in Vancouver for almost 14 years, this is where I truly encounter the "western lifestyle". Is this what Westerners should be doing? Partying, drinking, going to pubs, not eating sushi and bubble tea, hooking up with girls/guys, having spontaneous talks to strangers on the streets? I really hope I won't misrepresent Vancouver in my future travels. "Oh yah, basically in Vancouver other than it being a sugar-coated haven for international students, you eat sushi, drink bubble tea, and possibly visit the aquarium. Yah. That's pretty much it!" But then again, I always think about how disappointed many tourists must be at the Vancouver night life. Comparing to cities like Montreal, Tokyo, and other European cities, Vancouver is barely dimming.

And on that bitter note, that ends my musing of the night. Goodnight Vancouver.

7.05.2009

Kakkoi?

"Yeh. I'm pimpin'."


Things I will lie about myself in Waseda to make me look cool:
1. I'm 25 years old
2. I only date older girls
3. I'm one-eighth Dutch
4. I've been smoking since 15
5. I took 3 years off school and played my keyboard in random gigs
6. I survived cancer
7. (Optional to number 3) I'm adopted
8. I forgot when I lost my virginity
9. I read newspaper
10. I lost my long-lost love 5 years ago (she died in a car accident)

Any other suggestions?